My Timeline

     As I tiptoe towards the age of twenty-four, I realize that I have not accomplished all that I wanted to accomplish at this age.  I realize that I am still quite young by most standards, including my own; however, that does not change the fact that I had hoped that I would be somewhere else (geographically, professionally and otherwise) by now.  I like a certain degree of spontaneity in my life, but I had all of the major things planned out.  While I know that life never goes exactly the way that you expect or want it to go, I can't help but notice that everyone in my circle of friends seem to have their shit together more than others. And by others, I mean me.  I can't help but feel pangs of jealousy as I stalk people's Facebook pages survey the lives of others.  Lately, I have avoided phone and face-to-face contact with certain people because all it does is remind me of who I am, or rather who I am not.  I even get jealous of The Fiance occasionally, which makes me uncomfortable; experiencing feelings that are at once both amorous and envious is altogether foreign to me.  To a certain extent, what I am going through is normal; most people say things like, "Before I turn 35, I'd like to be married" or "I want to get my Master's Degree by the year 2015."  But my problem is that I dwell too much on what I haven't done, so much so that I feel like a failure for not having reached those goals (especially when other people have accomplished so much).  I definitely don't want to lose sight of my ambition, but it is neither healthy nor productive to punish myself like a Flagellant for not being all that I set out to be--especially if I'm trying to adhere to some deadline that I set for myself.  
     If I'm lucky, I've got a good 60-70 years left on this earth (provided I don't die early from a heart attack due to my love of unhealthy food and a sedentary lifestyle).  I need to accept the fact that I still have plenty of time to make things happen. For most things I want to do, it's not too late.

I'm looking to add a bit more to this timeline